i'll surely be questioned. I was known to be one of her favourites, and I'd just done that post about how she'd set aside space for me in the greenhouses.
I'll keep my head down as much as I can. But, oh Mum, she was the best. She made me feel like I wasn't some thick, useless dunce because I wasn't in YPL, but that I was brilliant at something, and I could give that to the Order. Something real.
I've kept my curtains round my bed closed, but I've barely slept a wink. I mustn't let Seamus get any hint that I'm upset. Well, other than there was a traitor at Hogwarts.
Oh, bugger. There's the Daemonorops draco. And my lionwort. Professor Sprout can't harvest them now, but I don't dare set foot near the greenhouses.
I just realised...Madam Pomfrey said she failed to commit suicide. But she's still dead. I can't believe Bella Lestrange wouldn't have kept her alive a little while longer for questioning, especially if the others fled.
Did an Enforcer kill her in the melee when Professor Dumbledore try to rescue her?
I'm glad. Honest, I am. I'm glad that Hyda's mum couldn't torture her anymore. He made the right decision.
It's still my boggart, you know. That I'd do something that would give me away--and in my case, it'd be something stupid--and I'd be forced into betraying the Order.
But Professor Sprout wasn't stupid. She was just--just kind, and clever and...and she was such a Hufflepuff. So loyal.
She didn't deserve this. I mean, I'm glad she isn't suffering any pain now, and wow, she was so strong, if she could keep the secrets of all the students involved, even under torture. But she didn't deserve this.
Was Professor Dumbledore able to take her body away, at least?
No. He wasn't. I could tell that weighed quite heavily on him.
She was a good, kind, decent human being, and she faced her enemy with the greatest strength she could muster.
And I know, it's a burden, son. You've spent years being careful. Years spent keeping our correspondence hidden from even your closest friends, training your mind, watching every reaction and word.
I hate that you've been put in that position, but I would hate your being kept in ignorance even more.
Regardless, this is what your reality has been ever since you turned twelve and we wrote you your first letter, and you've handled all of it marvellously, and will continue to do so, I have no doubt.
I know there needs to be time to process, time to sort all this out, but oh, sweet heart, she thought the world of you.
Whenever we'd get together, she'd go on and on about your work. I'll never forget, this past summer, when we were talking about your NEWTs, she looked at me square in the eye and said, 'I can hold off retirement for five years or so, which should give him plenty of time.'
You are brilliant. And I am so sorry that you've lost such an important person in your life, but I am so very glad that you had the opportunity to work with someone who could recognise your worth, and who cared so very much for your future and well-being.
And son, I know all the work you've done is calling out to you, and that it is important. But don't try to rescue any of it. Not a single cutting. Are we clear?
Yes, ma'am. I'll obey that as an order from my superior officer AND my Mum, I promise.I am going to be quietly indignant that there was a traitor in our ranks, but will show loyalty and willingness to be of any help possible. And I'll keep my head down and act ever so slightly thick.
During our occlumency lessons, Mr Snape and I also talked about the best demeanor for me to assume, if suspicion's ever getting close to me.
hey, kiddo. just one more week, and you'll be home for hols.
we'll have to be careful, mind, but merlin, I'm looking forward to seeing you and your sister.
remember, they won't be on the lookout for more traitors. they'll be looking into her, not you.
and do me a favour, make sure you get a chance to go on a nice long walk with a mate in the next day or two so you don't have to keep it all bottled up, all right?
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I'm so very sorry, son.
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I'll keep my head down as much as I can. But, oh Mum, she was the best. She made me feel like I wasn't some thick, useless dunce because I wasn't in YPL, but that I was brilliant at something, and I could give that to the Order. Something real.
I've kept my curtains round my bed closed, but I've barely slept a wink. I mustn't let Seamus get any hint that I'm upset. Well, other than there was a traitor at Hogwarts.
Oh, bugger. There's the Daemonorops draco. And my lionwort. Professor Sprout can't harvest them now, but I don't dare set foot near the greenhouses.
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Did an Enforcer kill her in the melee when Professor Dumbledore try to rescue her?
Or did he kill her?
Please. I have to know.
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She was barely alive, and bound in such a way that releasing her would've proven fatal. There was no time. He did what he could to ease her suffering.
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It's still my boggart, you know. That I'd do something that would give me away--and in my case, it'd be something stupid--and I'd be forced into betraying the Order.
But Professor Sprout wasn't stupid. She was just--just kind, and clever and...and she was such a Hufflepuff. So loyal.
She didn't deserve this. I mean, I'm glad she isn't suffering any pain now, and wow, she was so strong, if she could keep the secrets of all the students involved, even under torture. But she didn't deserve this.
Was Professor Dumbledore able to take her body away, at least?
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She was a good, kind, decent human being, and she faced her enemy with the greatest strength she could muster.
And I know, it's a burden, son. You've spent years being careful. Years spent keeping our correspondence hidden from even your closest friends, training your mind, watching every reaction and word.
I hate that you've been put in that position, but I would hate your being kept in ignorance even more.
Regardless, this is what your reality has been ever since you turned twelve and we wrote you your first letter, and you've handled all of it marvellously, and will continue to do so, I have no doubt.
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Whenever we'd get together, she'd go on and on about your work. I'll never forget, this past summer, when we were talking about your NEWTs, she looked at me square in the eye and said, 'I can hold off retirement for five years or so, which should give him plenty of time.'
You are brilliant. And I am so sorry that you've lost such an important person in your life, but I am so very glad that you had the opportunity to work with someone who could recognise your worth, and who cared so very much for your future and well-being.
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During our occlumency lessons, Mr Snape and I also talked about the best demeanor for me to assume, if suspicion's ever getting close to me.
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Bugger. Have to go up to my room and duck behind the bed curtains again. If Seamus asks, I'll him I have something in my eye.
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we'll have to be careful, mind, but merlin, I'm looking forward to seeing you and your sister.
remember, they won't be on the lookout for more traitors. they'll be looking into her, not you.
and do me a favour, make sure you get a chance to go on a nice long walk with a mate in the next day or two so you don't have to keep it all bottled up, all right?